Hello HELLO!!!!

Hi again! I know it's probably been a long time since I've updated this. :P My bad.

So I'm sitting in my graphic design class right now, with pretty much nothing to do! I'm finished with my part of the group project work and I've already offered to help these guys with their but they haven't asked me to help them with anything.. so whatever. I don't feel like doing other people work anyway. They need to be on top of it like i was! SO yeah this is a three hour class and I've just been on Facebook hoping someone will go online in the chat thingy. Cause I BE BORED!!!!!

So let me update this with all the things that have been happening in my life. I probably said this already in a past post but i honestly don't remember when i last updated haha! But i got a car in Dec last year. It's a green 1995 Saab 900 S. Its cool and everything but it needs some work done on it. I don't have the money for that. I need a job... And to make things worse, David kinda got into a minor collision with it busting my right headlight, denting the side fender, breaking my right side mirror and there is a huuge ugly scratch on the right side door. It's so ugly. I feel like i'm driving a ghetto car now. >.< Of course I'm making him pay for ALL the damages.

This semester I've been taking Graphic Design Layout, Reading 158, Human Sexuality, and a fitness class. And so far i think I'm doing pretty good. I've been trying my BEST to get everything in on time. I think i have a B in my Reading class, but that's mostly because we haven't even started some assignments and it will all add up in the end. HOPEFULLY I'll get an A! :) I think i have a C in my Sexuality class.. I think that class is soooo interesting and i know that I'm paying attention to everything and trying my best to take good notes. It's just my test scores that are bringing me down. I need better study skills and i think we should have bought the book to help with the things that I'm not too sure on. I'm not too sure about my Graphic Design class because we don't turn anything in until the very end. But I think I've been doing well and I'll be happy if i get a B! Soo I'm gonna try to save my GPA by getting an A in my fitness class. I don't remember how many hours I have at the moment, but we only have like 3 weeks of class and I think they might even close the gym for the last week cause of finals and that class doesn't have a final. So I'm gonna work out after my classes every single day for the next two weeks. It's a win/win situation for me actually... Not only will I get a better grade, but I'll probably lose some weight!

So my mom's been working at the Wal-Mart super center in (technically its Chula Vista) Otay Ranch. And she's been really trying to hook me up with a job. And she's been talking about me to all the managers and they told her to have the main hiring lady look up my application. SO I'M SERIOUSLY HOPING THEY GIVE ME AN INTERVIEW!!! Because a I'm so sick and tired of applying and waiting and the whole process of job hunting! I'm sick and tired of being broke and not having the things i want. I need the money to fix my car, have gas money, pay people back, buy the healthy food i want, have a cell phone for more than a month at a time, save up to mover out and everything else! I'm so done with being poor. I'm done with sitting around the house all day (Even though i will miss it.. cause I'm naturally lazy at heart lmao) and I want to be more independent, and hopefully make some friends! haha So yeah I will probably know if i get hired within the next week or two.

What else.. Me and Ryan have been pretty good to. Still just as happy as always. Havin' fun whenever we can. There hasen't really been any problems between us for a while and that's good. :) He's my love.

Lets see.. it's 9:30 and this class ends around 10:45.. Ughhhhh!... what should i do?!?! If i could i would just leave and go work out NOW!.. Hmm.. maybe i will after this class for like 45 mins.. cause My next class starts at 12 so i'll have a good hour in between classes. Coo! I'll get an A fo sho!!!!! Alright well i'm thirsty! I'm gonna go buy a water and try to find something else to do. Until next time blog!.. whenever that may be.... :)

Hello Everyone.

Hi again. I'm back from the dead! I know it's probably been a while since I've updated this. I don't even know what the last post was about! I was just sitting in bed thinking i should take the time to let you know whats been going on in my life. A lot of good things, but mostly a lot of.. bad/lame things as well. The good things are that for the most part this year so far has been really happy for me. I've been spending a lot of time with my love, Ryan. We've been having fun chilling with each other. I started the semester at school in Jan and so far my classes are pretty cool. I'm taking a Graphic Design - Layout class which is awesome. We're learning to use a program called InDesign CS5. I missed a couple days already so I've kinda missed out on some of the practices. On Monday we're going to start doing our first REAL assignment. We need to bring in a "beautiful" magazine (like Vogue) to class because we're going to learn how to make our own articles or something. Pretty fun! The start of my career is with this class so I'm going to get an A! After that I'm taking the 2nd Reading class I need to get my Associates. This class is going to be easy and it's only an hour and 15 minutes! So short class yay! Then I'm taking yet another fitness class because i need i loose this weight that i can't seem to loose. :( Then i'm taking a very interesting and fun Human Sexuality class. And my love accompanies me during those 2 classes so yay again! lol Hmm.. Other good things that have been happening are that I've started trying to make baby clothes! I bought a Simplicity pattern that i can make a whole cute baby outfit with! Hopefully i can make a small career/hobby from sewing if i get good enough. I don't know if i said this in a previous post but I bought my first car! It is a 1995 Saab 900 SE.. I think. lol It's like a hunter green and the interior is a nice bright beige or something. Good condition. The downside is that i can't drive it right now because it needs some repairs. But they should get fixed within the next 2 weeks. Oh yeah another awesome thing is that i got my driving permit! so now all i need to do is practice and then my car can be all mine! :)

So now onto the lame things that have been dealing with. First of all.. I need a job. I can't seem to get one! I've been applying but i think i might be failing those lame ass questionnaire's they give! That makes me sad cause that means i've been wasting time applying to all these places for nothing.. cause they won't even consider you for a job if you failed em. ALL I NEED IS A JOB!!!! first and foremost!...then everything else will fall in place.. I'll have money to buy myself all the things that i've always wanted but could never get because i'm poor. I will get to move out this year which i'm really looking forward to. i'll have money to have my own phone, gas money for my car.. etc etc!!.. I need help but i don't know where to get it. :( bleeehhh.. it really stresses me out and kills my mood just thinking about it. Another thing that bums me out is my weight!!!! i might not seem very fat but i weight 150 pounds!!.. thats horrible.. and ugly too me. Luckily i have a guy who loves me for me. My weight can be fixed though.. i need to be strong and strict with what i eat. And i need to really push myself when i'm working out. Me and Ryan have worked out twice this week and i'm REALLY feeling it today. I've never had my upper abs, lower abs AND my obliques hurt all at the same time. hahaha! My legs and ass are super sore too.. So.. pray for me and wish me luck so that i can finally be confident about myself and like what i see when i look in the mirror. What else.. Things at home are still really hard. It's hard to deal with too. it just sucks because there's nothing i can do about it. I can't escape it. all i can do is deal with it. And i know that when i get a job, my money will be going to them too so i probably will still be stuck here cause i wont be able to save up. :((((!!!

BLEEEEEHHHHHHH.... I need a break from these things. All i want is a job.. seriously. Someone needs to help me get one. If i keep failing these questionnaires then i'll be stuck here forever. :(

Um.. Yeah. Oh yeah.. My 21st b-day is coming up. I bet nothing cool will happen on it though. Every year i keep saying i want this AWESOME b-day. I plan it out and am hopeful. but somethings always comes up and ruins things.. So.. As much as i want an amazing b-day.. I can't get my hopes up. last year i spent my b-day alone at my house. nothing happened all.. i didn't go anywhere.. no one came over to see me. (except ryan bit he had class so i only saw him for the last 2 hours of the day.) just the usual family. UGH!... Oh well.. Maybe there will be better days in the future. This year i want to go out to eat with everyone. and since my b-day landed on a tuesday.. I can't even get shit-faced on my DAMN BIRTHDAY!! cause lucky me! i get to go to school at 8 in the morning the next day! woooo!!!!!! hahaha jk It's okay.. I think i'm just gonna wait till the weekend to drink. I have no other choice. heheh. K well i think this is a big enough update to hold you till next time.. whenever that may be. I think i'm going to continue my baby clothes project. cause i'm tired of laying in bed with this laptop on my lap! haha

Bye!!!!!

BLEEEEHHHHHH!!!!

HI! I'm here in the SWC library waiting for my homie melissa to come pick me up. She should be here any minute so i apologize if this entry is a little short..

SO!

I got my financial aide a couple weeks ago or something and i bought myself the sims 3 ambitions!!! YAY! It's pretty awesome. You get to go to work with your sims! I made a sim who is covered in tatoos cause i thought i was gonna be a tattooist but there is only the stylist profession.. But i think you can do tatoos also... but mehh.. I get to make over sims who come to the salon. It's fun! I wanna get late night next, then world adventueres and then all the "Stuff" expansions.

ALSO! I'm gonna be buying a car sometime next week! I still don't know what kind to get.. Either an eclipse, celica, orrrr a bmw. I DUNNO! I'm gonna need some help. I tried taking my permit test earlier this week but i failed!!!!!! i missed 7 questions and you're only allowed to miss 6. I thought you were able to mis 8!! i dunno maybe they changed it. SO YEAH! Can't wait!

Thats pretty much it for now. I'm gonna try and call melissa now. LATES!



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BLUE NIGHTMARE!!!!...... Here we come...

Hello Again!

Hiiii! I know it's been a while since i've updated this. Sorry! heheh

Soo.. I'm sitting here in the library waitting for my Art history class to start at 6. I have about 15 mins so yeah. Just trying to kill time. I would be reading my text book for class but i totally forgot which chapter i was supposed to read. :( My bad. Oh well. I was just killing time looking at youtube make up artist blogs. I think i know what i want to be for halloween! I think Ryan wants to be some like 1940's mafia gangster or something. Soooo.. I will either be a girl gangster (the only thing that sucks about that is there aren't too many cool looking ones. The best ones are the sluttier ones and i KNOW i will not look good in them) a "flapper" girl.. Don't know how to describe it, or some kind of vintage pin up type costume. hehe I'm gonna wear a wig and put marylin monroe make up. YAY! hope it looks good.

Today it's been raining HARD!! Pretty much all day. That's cool. I love this weather. I just wished it was thundering and lightning too! Last time that happened i was indoors all day.. didn't get to see much of it. :(

I'm having a great day so far. I worked out and ate some luch with a love who surprised me with 2 things today.. Too bad i can't say what they are.......... :D
After class i shall chill with him for a mini bit more.. then home time.
HOPEFULLY TOMORROW WE SEE JACKASS 3D!!!
So yeah it's almost time to get going! class starts in 7 mins!!! BYE!<3

Hi!

Yes i know it's been a while. I guess I forget to update sometimes. A lot's been going on. It's now SEPTEMBER. I recently started school for the fall season and so far it's going pretty good. I'm REALLY trying my best to get all my assignments done on time. and i have a good feeling this semester. Hopefully i'll get some A's! Ryan recently got a job at Home Depot! which is cool. He's been working there for about 2 weeks and he seems to really like it. :) Also since it's September, our year lease is almost up! i'm REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLYYYYYYYYY looking forward to moving back south again. I won't have problems getting to school anymore, we wont be wasting sooo much gas going back and forth anymore and i'll be somewhat closer to people.. who probably wont chill with me anyways. heheh but yeah i can't wait.. Also.. Halloween and Christmas is coming up! yayy!! I still don't know what i'm gonna be for Halloween. I probably won't dress up to save some money. cause i'm supposed to be buying a car soon. which i really wanna do. but i NEED a job or i'm gonna be screwed. I'm also in desperate need of some new clothes..pant's especially. and i wanted to buy some new makeup and some hair products and all that jazz. it's been a long time since i've bought stuff like that and i'm running out of everything. so it's time to re-up. That's also the only money i'll have for chirstmas if i dont get a job! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! :(

You know what? Next semester i should start having classes in the morning! that way i can have a better work schedule. and maybe someone will hire me if i have a better availability. It's gonna be so hard though. I'm gonna be dying!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Duuuuude! i'm waiting for my parents to come home with foooood! They should have been here by now! i haven't eaten anything in.... like 15 hours. ughhh.. theres NOTHING here to hold me off until they come.. save me!

Hmm.. i'm gonna miss my love this weekend. He's working pretty much everyday with some WACK ass hours. soo.. yeah.. oh well.. :)

k i'm done here i think.. Time to pass some time with my other love....
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The Sims 3!!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

At Home Chillin.

Sooo.. The weather here is starting to SUCK some big ol' balls..
It's sooo hot. Especially here in La Mesa. It feels soo much cooler when i go down to Palm. haha Feeling the fresh ocean air. I wanted to go swimming today but i just dyed my hair again.. It's not a very good idea to swim with red hair. haha It's lame cause my bedroom faces where the sun comes up, so in the morning at EXACTLY 7:30 i wake up in this baking heat, get my pillow and head to the living room. I put the AC on full blast and just pass out on the couch. haha I cant be in my room until the sun goes down cause its just so uncomfortable.
SO i spent the day doing laundry and dying my hair. I reallllllyyy want to paint my nails but i dont have nail polish remover. So i gotta figure something out. I try not to chip my nail polish off cause it fucks up my nails but i might not have a choice this time. I'm also gonna try to clean my room a little. It's a bit unorganized at the moment.

What else.. Oh yeah i got on academic probation!! :( i've had a bad GPA in school lately so i went to this seminar cause they said i couldn't register until i went to it. I was so scared that i wouldn't be able to get any classes! cause last semester they filled up REALLY fast. Surprisingly though, i got my classes yesterday! I gottt a math class, an art history class (Again.. :( ) hopefully i get into this biology class but just in case i cant, i got a reading class for back up. and my most favorite!!!... a strength and fitness class!!!!!! yayyy!!! i'm tired of being a fatty.. :( haha so yeah. Thats pretty much all for now. byebyeeeeeeeeeeeee

Alrighty.

I hate not updating in a while, cause i don't know where to begin. Today's just a lazy day i guess. Just sitting at home cause no one want's to chill. :( haha I called melissa to see if i can go chill at her house today but she said they're gonna have some party at someone elses house. i don't really wanna go cause i don't dance or know anyone she chills with so BLEH.

I WANT MONEY!!! I just wanna buy a bunch of random crap. haha Trying to find a job is so hard though, and i HATE the process of it. Taking forever on online applications with their retarded ass 50 stupid questions. and of course they NEVER call you so you gotta call them and eeehhh... Whatever though. I guess everyone needs to do it. I might as well give it a shot. :P

Bleh bleh bleh.