Hello HELLO!!!!

Hi again! I know it's probably been a long time since I've updated this. :P My bad.

So I'm sitting in my graphic design class right now, with pretty much nothing to do! I'm finished with my part of the group project work and I've already offered to help these guys with their but they haven't asked me to help them with anything.. so whatever. I don't feel like doing other people work anyway. They need to be on top of it like i was! SO yeah this is a three hour class and I've just been on Facebook hoping someone will go online in the chat thingy. Cause I BE BORED!!!!!

So let me update this with all the things that have been happening in my life. I probably said this already in a past post but i honestly don't remember when i last updated haha! But i got a car in Dec last year. It's a green 1995 Saab 900 S. Its cool and everything but it needs some work done on it. I don't have the money for that. I need a job... And to make things worse, David kinda got into a minor collision with it busting my right headlight, denting the side fender, breaking my right side mirror and there is a huuge ugly scratch on the right side door. It's so ugly. I feel like i'm driving a ghetto car now. >.< Of course I'm making him pay for ALL the damages.

This semester I've been taking Graphic Design Layout, Reading 158, Human Sexuality, and a fitness class. And so far i think I'm doing pretty good. I've been trying my BEST to get everything in on time. I think i have a B in my Reading class, but that's mostly because we haven't even started some assignments and it will all add up in the end. HOPEFULLY I'll get an A! :) I think i have a C in my Sexuality class.. I think that class is soooo interesting and i know that I'm paying attention to everything and trying my best to take good notes. It's just my test scores that are bringing me down. I need better study skills and i think we should have bought the book to help with the things that I'm not too sure on. I'm not too sure about my Graphic Design class because we don't turn anything in until the very end. But I think I've been doing well and I'll be happy if i get a B! Soo I'm gonna try to save my GPA by getting an A in my fitness class. I don't remember how many hours I have at the moment, but we only have like 3 weeks of class and I think they might even close the gym for the last week cause of finals and that class doesn't have a final. So I'm gonna work out after my classes every single day for the next two weeks. It's a win/win situation for me actually... Not only will I get a better grade, but I'll probably lose some weight!

So my mom's been working at the Wal-Mart super center in (technically its Chula Vista) Otay Ranch. And she's been really trying to hook me up with a job. And she's been talking about me to all the managers and they told her to have the main hiring lady look up my application. SO I'M SERIOUSLY HOPING THEY GIVE ME AN INTERVIEW!!! Because a I'm so sick and tired of applying and waiting and the whole process of job hunting! I'm sick and tired of being broke and not having the things i want. I need the money to fix my car, have gas money, pay people back, buy the healthy food i want, have a cell phone for more than a month at a time, save up to mover out and everything else! I'm so done with being poor. I'm done with sitting around the house all day (Even though i will miss it.. cause I'm naturally lazy at heart lmao) and I want to be more independent, and hopefully make some friends! haha So yeah I will probably know if i get hired within the next week or two.

What else.. Me and Ryan have been pretty good to. Still just as happy as always. Havin' fun whenever we can. There hasen't really been any problems between us for a while and that's good. :) He's my love.

Lets see.. it's 9:30 and this class ends around 10:45.. Ughhhhh!... what should i do?!?! If i could i would just leave and go work out NOW!.. Hmm.. maybe i will after this class for like 45 mins.. cause My next class starts at 12 so i'll have a good hour in between classes. Coo! I'll get an A fo sho!!!!! Alright well i'm thirsty! I'm gonna go buy a water and try to find something else to do. Until next time blog!.. whenever that may be.... :)

Hello Everyone.

Hi again. I'm back from the dead! I know it's probably been a while since I've updated this. I don't even know what the last post was about! I was just sitting in bed thinking i should take the time to let you know whats been going on in my life. A lot of good things, but mostly a lot of.. bad/lame things as well. The good things are that for the most part this year so far has been really happy for me. I've been spending a lot of time with my love, Ryan. We've been having fun chilling with each other. I started the semester at school in Jan and so far my classes are pretty cool. I'm taking a Graphic Design - Layout class which is awesome. We're learning to use a program called InDesign CS5. I missed a couple days already so I've kinda missed out on some of the practices. On Monday we're going to start doing our first REAL assignment. We need to bring in a "beautiful" magazine (like Vogue) to class because we're going to learn how to make our own articles or something. Pretty fun! The start of my career is with this class so I'm going to get an A! After that I'm taking the 2nd Reading class I need to get my Associates. This class is going to be easy and it's only an hour and 15 minutes! So short class yay! Then I'm taking yet another fitness class because i need i loose this weight that i can't seem to loose. :( Then i'm taking a very interesting and fun Human Sexuality class. And my love accompanies me during those 2 classes so yay again! lol Hmm.. Other good things that have been happening are that I've started trying to make baby clothes! I bought a Simplicity pattern that i can make a whole cute baby outfit with! Hopefully i can make a small career/hobby from sewing if i get good enough. I don't know if i said this in a previous post but I bought my first car! It is a 1995 Saab 900 SE.. I think. lol It's like a hunter green and the interior is a nice bright beige or something. Good condition. The downside is that i can't drive it right now because it needs some repairs. But they should get fixed within the next 2 weeks. Oh yeah another awesome thing is that i got my driving permit! so now all i need to do is practice and then my car can be all mine! :)

So now onto the lame things that have been dealing with. First of all.. I need a job. I can't seem to get one! I've been applying but i think i might be failing those lame ass questionnaire's they give! That makes me sad cause that means i've been wasting time applying to all these places for nothing.. cause they won't even consider you for a job if you failed em. ALL I NEED IS A JOB!!!! first and foremost!...then everything else will fall in place.. I'll have money to buy myself all the things that i've always wanted but could never get because i'm poor. I will get to move out this year which i'm really looking forward to. i'll have money to have my own phone, gas money for my car.. etc etc!!.. I need help but i don't know where to get it. :( bleeehhh.. it really stresses me out and kills my mood just thinking about it. Another thing that bums me out is my weight!!!! i might not seem very fat but i weight 150 pounds!!.. thats horrible.. and ugly too me. Luckily i have a guy who loves me for me. My weight can be fixed though.. i need to be strong and strict with what i eat. And i need to really push myself when i'm working out. Me and Ryan have worked out twice this week and i'm REALLY feeling it today. I've never had my upper abs, lower abs AND my obliques hurt all at the same time. hahaha! My legs and ass are super sore too.. So.. pray for me and wish me luck so that i can finally be confident about myself and like what i see when i look in the mirror. What else.. Things at home are still really hard. It's hard to deal with too. it just sucks because there's nothing i can do about it. I can't escape it. all i can do is deal with it. And i know that when i get a job, my money will be going to them too so i probably will still be stuck here cause i wont be able to save up. :((((!!!

BLEEEEEHHHHHHH.... I need a break from these things. All i want is a job.. seriously. Someone needs to help me get one. If i keep failing these questionnaires then i'll be stuck here forever. :(

Um.. Yeah. Oh yeah.. My 21st b-day is coming up. I bet nothing cool will happen on it though. Every year i keep saying i want this AWESOME b-day. I plan it out and am hopeful. but somethings always comes up and ruins things.. So.. As much as i want an amazing b-day.. I can't get my hopes up. last year i spent my b-day alone at my house. nothing happened all.. i didn't go anywhere.. no one came over to see me. (except ryan bit he had class so i only saw him for the last 2 hours of the day.) just the usual family. UGH!... Oh well.. Maybe there will be better days in the future. This year i want to go out to eat with everyone. and since my b-day landed on a tuesday.. I can't even get shit-faced on my DAMN BIRTHDAY!! cause lucky me! i get to go to school at 8 in the morning the next day! woooo!!!!!! hahaha jk It's okay.. I think i'm just gonna wait till the weekend to drink. I have no other choice. heheh. K well i think this is a big enough update to hold you till next time.. whenever that may be. I think i'm going to continue my baby clothes project. cause i'm tired of laying in bed with this laptop on my lap! haha

Bye!!!!!