UGhhhhh.. school is gonna be lame..

Cause i waited to long to sign up for classes. now im on some waiting lists and i probably wont get the schedule i wanted!! thats pretty gay. Right now im over here at Edwin's house chillin.. waitin to get a connect. I dont have any internet at the moment so i will make my post here!! This is taking foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. wanna blaze itttt.

So tomorrow i gotta go back to SWC with Michelle so i can figure this shit out. i gotta call her later today. i dont really know what to write about today. i havent done much lately.. just swimmin and chillin with some peeeps. i dunno.. thats all for today cause i cant write on here with people behind me watching what i type hahaha so im out!!!

Love,
Sara :)

I just made a post and it didnt come up. WTF! I don't feel like typing it all over again. oh well.. it was basically saying that i'm falling behind with getting my school stuff taken care of.. and i might not be able to go in the fall.. because im lame and i dont know what papers i need and i dont know what classes i need.. so yeah. thats all..

Ugh..

I'm so mad at Ryan's MOM!!!! She won't leave him alone and let him do what he wants.. EVER! Seriously, he's like the only guy i know who HAS to hang out with his mom. UGHHH!!! she gets me so mad. I hate going to his house because of her too. Always yelling and saying things about me when im right there. Can't she just pretend to be nice when i come around? Ask me how i'm doing?? wait until i leave to talk shit? damn... calm down already.. fjvio;jvn;oau I just wanna hang out with my Ryan. :( I miss him from not seeing him all day yesterday. Well at least i got to see him for a couple of hours today driving around. FUCKK!!!!

So i guess our cat had babies awhole back and finally brought 2 of them back home. One ran away already, and one is still here. I think Josh might have caught it! i'm gonna go check it out right now. see you guys later!

Love,
Sara :)

FAIL

So i guess my sleeping habits weren't fixed at all. :( Here i am once again at 6:48 AM. UGHH.. i don't think i'll be able to fix it again. Oh well... Fuck it! hahahha

So tomorrow, my boyfriend Ryan is playing a show in TJ with his band Invocation War. It sucks cause i really really really wanna go, but i'm scared cause i don't have a passport and i dont wanna get fined or anything like that. Neither does he, but he's going anyways.. I hope nothing happens to him coming back over the border. lol TJ is soooo scary. But its fun cause i can drink and not get in trouble. heheheh. I hope he has a lot of fun and dosen't get into any trouble over there. lol I told him to stay with the group, and not to go anywhere by himself. Seriously, people get killed over there!! and they get their bodies stuffed with drugs!!! AHHH!! scary.. hahah Anyways, i hope they get a lot of pictures!!

Well, i ran out of stuff to do online, so this is the last thing i'm doing before i sign out for the night.. er.. morning.. or whatever. I CANT STOP THINKING OF STARTING MY CLOTHING LINE!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I'm SO SO SO SO excited to start! i gotta start losing weight and dye my hair a crazy red... This is pretty much the style i want..


Think it will look good on me? (for people who know what i look like..?) heheh. I dont know. Looks cool to me. :P Anywayssssss. goodnight people.. I'm hungry again so im gonna eat something and then maybe pass out. heheh

Love,
Sara :)

I Did it!!!!!

Soooo.. I finally was able to fix my sleeping habits.. i think..?

I stayed awake until 3pm yesterday (I wasn't supposed to sleep yet.. OOPS!) slept for like an hour and a half, then my boyfriend Ryan came and woke me up before he went to band practice.. So i stayed up to shower and eat.. then went to sleep again for a couple more hours so i would be able to hang out with Ryan when he got back.. If i didn't take those naps i would have been passing out while he was here. Soooo.. he got back at about 9:45 and stayed until 12:30 with meh. AND i ended up sleeping again and i slept through the whole night, and woke up around 1pm. hehhehe.

So now im just waiting for Elle (or allthatglitters21 from Youtube) to be on blogTV. While waiting i added a few beauty bloggers to my blogspot friends on here. :) and i'm about to go eat now so i'll talk you you soon. BYE!

Love,
Sara :)

Okay.. So I Never Went To Sleep..

I got all caught up on this thing.. I originally made it on Livejournal.com... but the layouts you choose from are hella ugly and boring. I thought I could change them later, but it still looked shitty.. So I chose BLOGGER!! and I like it a whole lot better. Hahaha. So I've been on here trying to fix it up and everything.

I need to stay awake ALL day today. Since nothing is planned for the day.. I will fix my sleeping habits TONIGHT! Yay! I'm probably going to be on here and playing FFXI all day
... so again wish me luck..

TIME TO MAKE COFFEE!!! YUMS!!

Oh.. and if anyone wants to chat with me through out the day to keep me AWAKE.. I'll be on MSN!! So ADD ME!
Heavenly_Suffering@hotmail.com -YAY! :P

Love,
Sara :)

Here Goes Nothing..

*Siigghhh..*

I've been thinking a lot lately.. and I'm REALLY excited to get my life started.. I've been planning and planning for the future, and have imagined where i will end up. I have about a million ideas running around in my head and i don't really know where to start. i have so many interests in things, but i really cant do anything with ANY of them.

For example..
I wanna be a graphic artist.. but i lack skills and i don't have my own computer.
I wanna be a fashion designer.. but i also lack skills and don't have a sewing machine or any other materials needed.
I wanna make videos on Youtube.. buuut.. i don't have anything to talk about.. and i don't have the materials needed.
etc etc.

Okay.. so this is what I'm thinking.. since I'm going to school to be a graphic designer at the moment.. i will hopefully gain the skills i need within a year.. maybe more. To be great at it, i might need more schooling.. but who knows.. within this year, i need to buy a sewing machine and hopefully I'll be able to take a sewing class or something so i can start making clothes. Meanwhile.. I'll be practicing with makeup and things like that so i can make those damn videos and get the word out about my clothes.. umm.. after i get my associates in art, i think i might go to school to be a pharmacist or something.. so i can really be bawlin'....lol

I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!! but i don't want a job yet.. And that's the main thing that's really holding me back.. Oh well.. I'll figure something out.. Within a year maybe things will really start happenin for meh.

Anyways.. i've decided to make this livejournal account to write out things i'm going through, things i'm feeling, things I'm thinking about, plans, to document the fun days and the bad days (Unfortunately... ) ETC. So I'm gonna end this here because it's fuckin 8:00 in the fuckin morning and i gotta get my ass to sleep. i need to start the lame ass day ahead of me. lol I'll be sure to update this as much as possible so anyone who is interested in my life can know what I'm up to..

hehehheheh! WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Love,
Sara ;)