So..

MAN, am i getting fat. I can just feel.. I told Ryan i was getting fatter but of course he told me i wasn't.. What else would he say?.. Ugh.. But i know my body.. and when i say i gained a couple pounds, I GAINED A COUPLE POUNDS. I've been eating a lot more recently, compared to the once a day plan i was doing for quite some time.. Which worked surprisingly. lol more and more junk food, than real food now. And i dont get out at all. All i do is sit around my house. so.. Of course im getting fatter.. I'm HATING it.. but on monday i'll start my Yoga classes, which i cant wait for.. I know it will work.. maybe it will make me more healthy too. Fuck, i need to do a lot of things. I'm so damn lazy thoughhhhhhh.. lol i wish i was hot.. like, EXTREAMLY hot. like.. beyond gorgeous..... GOOOOODDDDDD.. i get so angry with myself.. hahah Something must be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moving on. I keep getting Helloween stuck in my head. I WANT OUT!!!!! To liiiiive myyy life aloone.. I WANT OUT!!!!! leaaaave meee beeee!! I WANT OUT!!!!! To dooo thiiings on my own!! I WANT OUT!!!!! To liiive my life and to be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

It's 6 AM!!! and i dont know what to do. No sleep.. Sleep is for the weak! oh no!! my beautifuil roses are starting to die! :( nooooooo!!!!!! they're starting to ROT!.. haha I wish i had a monkey.. So then i could train it to be my butler. like in the sims... haha i'm watching this thing on Animal Planet about monkies. crazy little buggas..I WANT OUT!!!!!! haha jk.

I'm kinda bored.. I should listen to destoyer 666 and Primal Fear so i can know some songs when we go see em. Invocation War (My boyfriends band) is gonna be playing some shows soon too.. but one of them is a 21+ show.. which is GAY!! i really wanna go. :(

so it turns out i'm not moving.. which is a good thing. Honestly, im pretty tired of living in this house.. but i'd rather live here and be close to my Ryan and close to school and close to whatever friends i have left, than go live up in Hisperia.. FUCK NO.. Thats way to far.. even though we would have been living in a nice ass house.. where it snows.. up in the mountain area.. Nahh.. To far. I would have been miserable if i couldnt see my love. hahah So this problem is solved and we wont be going anywhere for a long time.. i think were actually gonna buy this house... i think.. Which would be cool cause then we could add on to it and maybe add a second story.. and i can get a cooler room.. with my own bathroom?????? hahahah i wish.. I swear though.. i cant wait to move out on my own.. To be able to do whatever i want whenever i want.. and to have a car.. and be able to buy anything i want.. and decorate my whole house however i want.. have as many parties as i want.. Siiiiighhhh... all in due time.. I just cant give up.. get my shit taken care of NOW so i can have fun and be really happy in the future!!

Okay thats all for now i guess.. What am i gonna do now...?... enter for tiffanyd's contest some more.. and check out some sexy pics from my sexy man!! woo!! goodnight..

Love,
Sara :)