Happy New Year!!!!!!

Hello again!
I was sitting here in my room watching TV, and since there's absolutely nothing on, i decided to update this thing for the start of the new year. Its just lame cause i don't think anyone even reads this.. i wish Ryan or some of my other friends had blogs, so i could read theirs and they could read mine and leave me comments. haahah. But yeah.. I guess i could just use this thing for memories.. Look back in like 10 years and see what was going on in my head when i was young.

Sooo.. First of all.. i need to talk about what i thought of 2009.. It was kind of a shitty year for me.. Some things were good but overall i think it sucked.. Now that i think about it... i cant even remember anything.. All we did this whole year was party.. I mean yes it was fun but damn.. lol
thats kind of lame.. i didnt accomplish anything. the only thing im glad i did was get my first job at JC Penny. And i think the worst thing that happened this year was us moving to gay La Mesa. I was kinda depressed for a while. I felt like i was so far away from Ryan. and since he was basically my only friend, i felt trapped here.. cause he kept telling me that he would go and hang out with the homies without me.. and before i moved here.. we would do EVERYTHING together.. and i felt so left out and sad.. i think i started to get jelous or something. but now i think ive gotten used to living here.. we've been doing out best to see eachother and hang out with peeps.. and i think its working out good now. We WILL be moving back to SD though. I cant wait to go back. I had a good xmas too.. Ryan remembered that i really REALLY wanted a sewing machine and he got me one! haha i just cant figure out how to use it!!! and its frustrating. haha cause i wanna fix all my clothes already and start my little buisiness. my new year was lame cause Ryan was mad at me......... cause im a dumbass........... >.<
I really didnt mean to cause such drama.. Damn i thought drinking was supposed to be FUN! and it really did used to be fun for me too... i used to love drinking with my friends... and now its terrible.. its not fun at all.. and i dont fell the need to ever drink again.. cause it ruins everyone elses fun.. and thats not cool. anyways.. i didnt get my new years kiss........ which i was really looking forward too. i was thinking about how i was gonna kiss Ryan at midnigh for like 2 weeks.. haha.. but because of me, that didnt happen.. he never even wished me a happy new year.. even after we made up. lol... lame... but he has high hopes for the new year.. and now so do i.. So i made a couple new years resolutions myself.. (in no particular order.)

1. Have a bikini body..
- Ryan is HOT! and he deserves to have a hot girlfriend.. and im tired of feeling bad about myself when i look in the mirror.. I wanna be extra confident this year!

2. Take a sewing class this summer..
- I really really wanna make clothes and have my own little online buisness.

3. Learn to drive/get my liscense..
- So i can be more independent.

4. Be a better artist..
- i LOVE to draw.. but i noticed that i never draw in my free time.. only in class.. and i wish i could draw more.. but i can't seem to find inspiration.. i wanna take a painting class and i finally am going to take my graphic design class.. hopefully next semester.. i dont care how early i have to get up to take it.

5. Be a better girlfriend to Ryan.
- I thought i was a good ass girlfriend before.. but lately i dont think i have been.. i feel really bad for all the drunkin scenes ive done.. i've hurt him physically and i embarrased him in front of his friends.. So i'm gonna do the best i can to make and keep him happy!!!

6. NO DRINKING
- Fuck yeah..

7. Stay possitive and be happy.
- I don't wanna feel like i did last year. I wanna make the best of this year and start off my 20's right!

8. Hopefully make some friends........
- cause im tired of being alone when Ryans busy.. and the old ones dont seem to wanna chill with me.. i'm always the one who says "whats up! lets hang out!" first.. they never talk to me on myspace to see whats up with me or wanna chill.. so im done.. if they dont care then im not gonna care.. i'll make some cooler friends..

i probably have more but i cant think of them right now... i'm done with this blog....... I wanna go and play sims now cause i bought a kickass 6 bedroom house!!!!! lates and happy new year to anyone who reads this... which i doubt... if you do then leave me a comment or something!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love,
Sara<3