Guess who got a JOB???!!!!!
ME!!!!
HAHAHHAHAHA!
I'm gonna be working at JC Penny! I just HOPE i pass the drug test! :O Its been like 3 weeks since i smoked the ganja.. :( it better be out of my systen cause i need this job. I gotta buy xmas presents! and clothes for me! so yeah i'm pretty excited.. and a little nervous.. Its my first job and i hope i dont fuck anything up. lol I gotta go in tomorrow at 4. I dont know how long training it, but i hope i get to work on black friday. Weeeeee!!! damn.... theres no smiley faces on here?!??! i was gonna put one right there but there's none to be found.. :( oh well.
So i'm sitting here on my bed in my room. I went to the art museum in balboa today with ryan. Saw some pretty cool paintings. I wonder if the tour continued after we left.. cause everyone was just sort of walking around after we got in the second gallery. We just decided to leave. now i gotta do some kind of 3-5 page report due on the 8th. :( so we came back, ate some good subway and then ryan went to work. After he gets out he's gonna buy me some clothes for work!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYY!!! i love shopping.. even though its for work.. its still gonna be fun. heehee
I feel like taking a nap........... But i kinda wanna take a shower too... andddd.... i also wanna play sims 3.. cause i made a new family and i wanna get their lives started. The guy is in the military and the girl is a doctor.. and they moved into this tiny little house in the country.. but theres this really cool mansion looking house that i wanna buy for them.. its like $221,000 and i think i only have like $300 saved. I had to buy stuff for their shitty house. hahahah yeah.. its fun.
OO!!!! new Ray Jay is gonna start. Gotta go. PEACE!!!!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
HAHAHA
OMG! I've always loved this guys stories!!! They're so funny. Its been a long time since ive checked up on his art and shit though. hahahah
Friday night, we find our hero- Alex Casteels walking down a busy road in Fuengirola. It's 21:30, in other words perfect timing considering I have set 22:30 as the actual meeting time with my girlfriend: 'The Finnish Girl'. I turn left, and walk into a Karaoke Bar. 'Karaoke Bar?' My trusty readers wonder. - Yes, Karaoke Bar, I've been going there for about seven years now and happen to have gotten fairly close with the owner, who also happens to share the same mother language. The owner, a woman called Chris, spots my arrival and starts preparing me a Whiskey-Cola immediately.
I take a seat at the same table I've been sitting at for seven years. (Hell, even the same chair.) It's not some obsessive compulsive disorder or anything, it's just that that particular table happens to be perfect in every way imaginable. It has a couch right next to it, a mirror across from my seat (ideal for secretly staring at people and checking hair status), it is the furthest away from the awful singing, provides optimal views over the entire establishment, it's right next to the actual bar and close to the bathroom without being too close so it becomes annoying. Chris walks up to me and says- 'Well, well – You're looking absolutely amazing tonight Alex'. (The conversation is obviously taking place in Dutch but it will be translated for the readers convenience.) She serves me my drink, 2 for 1 since it's happy hour.
-'Ye,' I reply.
She sits herself down and starts the conversation, something about her ending up in the hospital the night before after drinking 12 Red Bulls. I'm not really listening to her for multiple reasons, one of them being that I really hate people who tell me crazy- “Oh dude, I like had so many Red Bulls.” stories and the other reason being that I was busy analysing the crowd.
We have the typical worn out old man sitting by the bar ,staring blankly at a tall glass of alcohol. A group of total bitches, dressed up in matching outfits – probably on some kind of hen night. The couple staring at each other silently even though you can both clearly hear them think- “So this is it then huh, this is the person I'm meant to spend the rest of my fucking life with...” The touristy family who will most likely get mugged this very night. A man desperately trying his luck with some kind of pub gambling machine. An awesome guy sitting with the owner, drinking Whiskey-Cola's and so on and so forth.
I momentarily focus back on the conversation with Chris, who is still yapping on - "...and, I told him, Marco, I said, this is the last time you crawl in that piping hot oven, you hear?!" I'm not really finding it very interesting so I turn off again and watch the action on the street. A black man walks by dipping a piece of fried KFC chicken in a banana & watermelon smoothy, an over weight shirtless Spaniard walks by with an enormous ' Paella ' tattoo on his chest mumbling: ' Paella, paella, and more paella.' I get the weirdest feeling of deja-vu... Suddenly my phone rings, 'Wim Casteels' (aka my dad.) the screen reads. 'Oh Jesus, what now?', I quickly pay Chris for the drink and wave her away. Go tell someone else your god damn Red Bull bullshit, you crazy bitch.
-'Hello?!' I scream.
-'Alex, it's your father...
- …
- …
- …
- 'Hello?!'
- 'Alex, it's dad...'
- 'Yes, I can see that on my phone screen. What can I do for you?'
- 'Me and your mother have agreed that we don't want you sleeping in the car out there tonight, it's too dangerous.'
- 'I'm 23, I'm pretty sure I can take care of myself.'
- 'Yes, we saw that last time when we found you shirtless out there, in the car with a broken nose,your €700 camera stolen and the Jaguar emblem ripped from the hood of the car.'
- 'Entirely different circumstances.'
- 'You heard me, we expect you back here at a reasonable time.' “Click.”
I quickly re-dial his number, wait for an answer and say 'No.' “Click”
Hundred percent satisfied with myself I lean back in my chair and take a proud sip from my drink. My God, I still haven't had a cigarette! I quickly correct this and light up.
Some guy, who's job title it is to sing when no one else is singing has been extremely busy bastardizing some absolute classics and I'm insanely worried he will destroy David's Gray's – 'This Years Love' tonight. I decide to make a little prayer asking God to please make sure this doesn't happen. I'm not even half way through this prayer when I hear the guy go: 'Check, Check, 1-2-3, 1-2-3, And now! David Gray- This Years Love!' I stand up, walk up to him, move close to his ear and whisper: 'If you dare sing this song I will call my good friend N'goko to carve a god damn banana in your face with his machete. You understand?' The exotic sounding name in addition to the words: banana and machete have turned the man as white as a corpse and he carefully puts the microphone back in its place, sits down very slowly with his hands up in the air and says: ' Please no, Please no, Please no.'
Since I'm on my feet now anyway I walk by the bar for another Two for One - Whiskey Cola. I place the order and put the correct amount of money down.
- 'It's not €5.50 any more Alex,' Chris says- 'Happy Hour finished half an hour ago.'
- 'It's always Happy Hour for me, unless you would like me to call up my good friend N'goko and...
- 'OH GOD!' She yells, absolutely terrified 'No! Please, I didn't mean what I said, of course it's still Happy Hour for you!' White as a ghost, she prepares me my drinks in record time.
A few moments later, I'm sitting at my table and look at my watch, twenty minutes to go. If ever there is a good time, for a quick visit to the rest room- It is now. I walk down the stairs and into the men's room. Further proof there is no God, out of the three urinals, only the middle one is free and there is no turning back now. As all three of us are standing there, the guy on my right suddenly goes: 'To me, personally there is nothing better than standing here in the John, next to a sweet little boy like you.'
There is an eternal feeling silence that follows those hard hitting words. I can hear myself swallow in slow motion as I attempt to focus on the wall tiles right in front of me. Think of something else, think of something else, just pretend you don't speak English and didn't understand any of that nasty talk. I can feel the guy's eyes are still watching me and now the guy on my left whispers: 'Oh ye, that's exactly what I like... Oh ye, that's exactly what I like...'
I'm starting to sweat now, having received crystal clear confirmation I'm standing in between two absolute monsters. I quickly try and regain focus and concentrate on the graffiti, on the wall in front of me. “Nico+Maria”, “This place is da bomb”, “UK 4 Life”, suddenly the messages take a turn for the worse with material such as- “Watch out for those 2 animals!”, “My life will never be the same again...”, “HELP!” etc.
In one swift motion, almost impossible for the human eye to catch, I reach out to the light switch and press it, turning the whole room in complete darkness whilst I scream- RAPE! Swinging my arms around as hard as I can and sprint out of there. Both out of the bathroom and out of the Karaoke Bar.
Moments later I'm standing by a kebab place, waiting nervously for this Lebanese guy to finish his nonsense about their high quality meat and how exactly it differs from the 'lesser' kebab places. He keeps handling the kebab with his giant paws and I'm slowly starting to get fed up with this guy. This is ridiculous, eat it yourself you filthy fucker.
I tell him I have changed my mind and I don't want it any more. As I walk away I can hear him scream something about Allah's wrath and how I will get 'cut in two like a moterfuker' if I ever dare come there again.
I turn around momentarily and say- 'Shush Kebab!' The crowd laughs.
I walk down to Bogards, which some of you may remember as the location of my previous date. I sit myself down in a sofa and quickly order a Chivas Regal 25 which calms me down almost instantly. What an odd beginning to the night.
I take a sip from my drink and light up a new cigarette, someone behind me suddenly says: 'Hey Baby, like fuky fuky long time baby?'
An Asian girl is standing there behind me eating some egg fried rice.
- 'Whats, yow name baby!' she continues.
- 'John Dubov, what's yours?'
- 'My name Madeintaiwan baby!
- 'Your name was made in Taiwan?'
- 'No baby, my name: “Madeintaiwan.”
- 'Nice to meet you Madeintaiwan.'
- 'So, you weady for good time baby, good time! I love you long time!
- 'Interesting offer but unfortunately you're not exactly my type Madeintaiwan, you see I like girls with nose, not with it cut off.
- 'Faiw enough.' She accepts defeat and walks off to her next target.
As I sit there enjoying a familiar glass of Chivas Regal 25 I check my watch, my date is late. Those words weren't even cold yet and there she appeared, from around the corner – looking great.
'Hey Johanna!' I say.
Friday night, we find our hero- Alex Casteels walking down a busy road in Fuengirola. It's 21:30, in other words perfect timing considering I have set 22:30 as the actual meeting time with my girlfriend: 'The Finnish Girl'. I turn left, and walk into a Karaoke Bar. 'Karaoke Bar?' My trusty readers wonder. - Yes, Karaoke Bar, I've been going there for about seven years now and happen to have gotten fairly close with the owner, who also happens to share the same mother language. The owner, a woman called Chris, spots my arrival and starts preparing me a Whiskey-Cola immediately.
I take a seat at the same table I've been sitting at for seven years. (Hell, even the same chair.) It's not some obsessive compulsive disorder or anything, it's just that that particular table happens to be perfect in every way imaginable. It has a couch right next to it, a mirror across from my seat (ideal for secretly staring at people and checking hair status), it is the furthest away from the awful singing, provides optimal views over the entire establishment, it's right next to the actual bar and close to the bathroom without being too close so it becomes annoying. Chris walks up to me and says- 'Well, well – You're looking absolutely amazing tonight Alex'. (The conversation is obviously taking place in Dutch but it will be translated for the readers convenience.) She serves me my drink, 2 for 1 since it's happy hour.
-'Ye,' I reply.
She sits herself down and starts the conversation, something about her ending up in the hospital the night before after drinking 12 Red Bulls. I'm not really listening to her for multiple reasons, one of them being that I really hate people who tell me crazy- “Oh dude, I like had so many Red Bulls.” stories and the other reason being that I was busy analysing the crowd.
We have the typical worn out old man sitting by the bar ,staring blankly at a tall glass of alcohol. A group of total bitches, dressed up in matching outfits – probably on some kind of hen night. The couple staring at each other silently even though you can both clearly hear them think- “So this is it then huh, this is the person I'm meant to spend the rest of my fucking life with...” The touristy family who will most likely get mugged this very night. A man desperately trying his luck with some kind of pub gambling machine. An awesome guy sitting with the owner, drinking Whiskey-Cola's and so on and so forth.
I momentarily focus back on the conversation with Chris, who is still yapping on - "...and, I told him, Marco, I said, this is the last time you crawl in that piping hot oven, you hear?!" I'm not really finding it very interesting so I turn off again and watch the action on the street. A black man walks by dipping a piece of fried KFC chicken in a banana & watermelon smoothy, an over weight shirtless Spaniard walks by with an enormous ' Paella ' tattoo on his chest mumbling: ' Paella, paella, and more paella.' I get the weirdest feeling of deja-vu... Suddenly my phone rings, 'Wim Casteels' (aka my dad.) the screen reads. 'Oh Jesus, what now?', I quickly pay Chris for the drink and wave her away. Go tell someone else your god damn Red Bull bullshit, you crazy bitch.
-'Hello?!' I scream.
-'Alex, it's your father...
- …
- …
- …
- 'Hello?!'
- 'Alex, it's dad...'
- 'Yes, I can see that on my phone screen. What can I do for you?'
- 'Me and your mother have agreed that we don't want you sleeping in the car out there tonight, it's too dangerous.'
- 'I'm 23, I'm pretty sure I can take care of myself.'
- 'Yes, we saw that last time when we found you shirtless out there, in the car with a broken nose,your €700 camera stolen and the Jaguar emblem ripped from the hood of the car.'
- 'Entirely different circumstances.'
- 'You heard me, we expect you back here at a reasonable time.' “Click.”
I quickly re-dial his number, wait for an answer and say 'No.' “Click”
Hundred percent satisfied with myself I lean back in my chair and take a proud sip from my drink. My God, I still haven't had a cigarette! I quickly correct this and light up.
Some guy, who's job title it is to sing when no one else is singing has been extremely busy bastardizing some absolute classics and I'm insanely worried he will destroy David's Gray's – 'This Years Love' tonight. I decide to make a little prayer asking God to please make sure this doesn't happen. I'm not even half way through this prayer when I hear the guy go: 'Check, Check, 1-2-3, 1-2-3, And now! David Gray- This Years Love!' I stand up, walk up to him, move close to his ear and whisper: 'If you dare sing this song I will call my good friend N'goko to carve a god damn banana in your face with his machete. You understand?' The exotic sounding name in addition to the words: banana and machete have turned the man as white as a corpse and he carefully puts the microphone back in its place, sits down very slowly with his hands up in the air and says: ' Please no, Please no, Please no.'
Since I'm on my feet now anyway I walk by the bar for another Two for One - Whiskey Cola. I place the order and put the correct amount of money down.
- 'It's not €5.50 any more Alex,' Chris says- 'Happy Hour finished half an hour ago.'
- 'It's always Happy Hour for me, unless you would like me to call up my good friend N'goko and...
- 'OH GOD!' She yells, absolutely terrified 'No! Please, I didn't mean what I said, of course it's still Happy Hour for you!' White as a ghost, she prepares me my drinks in record time.
A few moments later, I'm sitting at my table and look at my watch, twenty minutes to go. If ever there is a good time, for a quick visit to the rest room- It is now. I walk down the stairs and into the men's room. Further proof there is no God, out of the three urinals, only the middle one is free and there is no turning back now. As all three of us are standing there, the guy on my right suddenly goes: 'To me, personally there is nothing better than standing here in the John, next to a sweet little boy like you.'
There is an eternal feeling silence that follows those hard hitting words. I can hear myself swallow in slow motion as I attempt to focus on the wall tiles right in front of me. Think of something else, think of something else, just pretend you don't speak English and didn't understand any of that nasty talk. I can feel the guy's eyes are still watching me and now the guy on my left whispers: 'Oh ye, that's exactly what I like... Oh ye, that's exactly what I like...'
I'm starting to sweat now, having received crystal clear confirmation I'm standing in between two absolute monsters. I quickly try and regain focus and concentrate on the graffiti, on the wall in front of me. “Nico+Maria”, “This place is da bomb”, “UK 4 Life”, suddenly the messages take a turn for the worse with material such as- “Watch out for those 2 animals!”, “My life will never be the same again...”, “HELP!” etc.
In one swift motion, almost impossible for the human eye to catch, I reach out to the light switch and press it, turning the whole room in complete darkness whilst I scream- RAPE! Swinging my arms around as hard as I can and sprint out of there. Both out of the bathroom and out of the Karaoke Bar.
Moments later I'm standing by a kebab place, waiting nervously for this Lebanese guy to finish his nonsense about their high quality meat and how exactly it differs from the 'lesser' kebab places. He keeps handling the kebab with his giant paws and I'm slowly starting to get fed up with this guy. This is ridiculous, eat it yourself you filthy fucker.
I tell him I have changed my mind and I don't want it any more. As I walk away I can hear him scream something about Allah's wrath and how I will get 'cut in two like a moterfuker' if I ever dare come there again.
I turn around momentarily and say- 'Shush Kebab!' The crowd laughs.
I walk down to Bogards, which some of you may remember as the location of my previous date. I sit myself down in a sofa and quickly order a Chivas Regal 25 which calms me down almost instantly. What an odd beginning to the night.
I take a sip from my drink and light up a new cigarette, someone behind me suddenly says: 'Hey Baby, like fuky fuky long time baby?'
An Asian girl is standing there behind me eating some egg fried rice.
- 'Whats, yow name baby!' she continues.
- 'John Dubov, what's yours?'
- 'My name Madeintaiwan baby!
- 'Your name was made in Taiwan?'
- 'No baby, my name: “Madeintaiwan.”
- 'Nice to meet you Madeintaiwan.'
- 'So, you weady for good time baby, good time! I love you long time!
- 'Interesting offer but unfortunately you're not exactly my type Madeintaiwan, you see I like girls with nose, not with it cut off.
- 'Faiw enough.' She accepts defeat and walks off to her next target.
As I sit there enjoying a familiar glass of Chivas Regal 25 I check my watch, my date is late. Those words weren't even cold yet and there she appeared, from around the corner – looking great.
'Hey Johanna!' I say.
Friday, October 16, 2009
I need to be patient....
So i'm FINALLY home alone right now.. Everyone had stuff to do today and i just wanted to be here by myself for once. Theres so much going on with me but i really dont feel like complaining about it. Everything is just shitty.. thats all im going to say. I just need something to DO! I'm so glad Ryan bought me THE SIMS 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's so awesome and fun, i've been playing it non-stop since i got it. Thats pretty much all that keeps em occupied. I need a hobby though.. SERIOUSLY! i wanna paint of draw something but i lack the inspiration, and materials.. I wanna sew.. but i STILL dont have my sewing machine.. I think im gonna start playing guitar maybe... theres nothing else to do. its so hard though and i know i suck at everything i do. I feel like going to a party or something.... if Ryan gets to go out and "do whatever he wants" then i should be able to too!.. next time i get the chance im getting crunk.. and i dont care if i get crazy and beat the shit out of someone... i'm gonna fucking enjoy myself for once.... its not fairrrrr! I WANNA GET OUT!!!!!! i just wish i coulf have ONE fucking friend who can pick me up and just take me out! I just wanna smoke weed every single day now so i can get through these months... but if i do that i'll never get a job... I feel so trapped. Since Ryan says to me he wants to do whatever the fuck he wants then i'm going to too.. I'm gonna start smoking ciggs again or something.. i dont like that he goes out drinking and smoking without me all the time now.. so im not gonna listen to him when he tells me he dosent want me to smoke those.. I need some fucking freedom too!!!! why is it that whenever i tell him i dont want him doing something, he says it makes him wanna do it anyways or some shit.. and when he dosent want me to do something.. i end up listening to him.. like when i wanted to throw up for a while to loose weight.. he said no and i listened... he said its not good for me.. well drinking and smoking 4 or 5 times a weeks isnt good for you either so fuck off!!
Anyways.... lol
i need to get my ass a job.. so i dont have to rely of Ryan for everything. i know he's trying hard but its not enough.. I need to buy things.. I really do.. My happiness is deteriorating more and more every single day and theres only so much i can take.. i need to give him a break. he needs to relax and i know he's stressing out too. *Sighhh* its just so hard right now. hmm.. i wonder if this counts as a long distance relationship..
A part of me wishes we could get kicked out of this place so we can go back south.. but i know that if that happened.. we would have no where to go. :( I just need to be strong and patient for a while....... when i get a job i'm gonna save up so i can get my own place..... with or without ryan... since he has to wait a whole damn year.. maybe i'll move into edwins by myself...... i dont know..
Anyways.... lol
i need to get my ass a job.. so i dont have to rely of Ryan for everything. i know he's trying hard but its not enough.. I need to buy things.. I really do.. My happiness is deteriorating more and more every single day and theres only so much i can take.. i need to give him a break. he needs to relax and i know he's stressing out too. *Sighhh* its just so hard right now. hmm.. i wonder if this counts as a long distance relationship..
A part of me wishes we could get kicked out of this place so we can go back south.. but i know that if that happened.. we would have no where to go. :( I just need to be strong and patient for a while....... when i get a job i'm gonna save up so i can get my own place..... with or without ryan... since he has to wait a whole damn year.. maybe i'll move into edwins by myself...... i dont know..
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Of Course!
Nothing Ever goes as planned for me.. Ugh!
SO i ended up moving to La Mesa. What a mess everything has turned out to be.
It just sucks so much here. theres SO many shopping centers, restaurants, and places to go over here but i'm never going to be able to enjoy any of it.. Im so fucking poor its not even funny. its really not. I've been so sad for the past few weeks and im really getting tired of it. i dont like feeling sad and helpless. I cant leave or go anywhere cause 1.. im poor.. 2 i'm far away from people 3 we have no gas to get down there.. so im always stuck here in the house doing nothing.. not able to have any damn privacy cause i share my room now and everyone just barges in whenever they please to use to the bathroom and use our closet. its rediculous.. i cant watch my own TV cause everyone is hogging it up all the time, and they complain when im using the computer.. i just HATE it.. i just wanna run away. i wish i was rich so i could at least enjoy myself and go shopping by myself or something... SOMETHING!!!!!
SO i ended up moving to La Mesa. What a mess everything has turned out to be.
It just sucks so much here. theres SO many shopping centers, restaurants, and places to go over here but i'm never going to be able to enjoy any of it.. Im so fucking poor its not even funny. its really not. I've been so sad for the past few weeks and im really getting tired of it. i dont like feeling sad and helpless. I cant leave or go anywhere cause 1.. im poor.. 2 i'm far away from people 3 we have no gas to get down there.. so im always stuck here in the house doing nothing.. not able to have any damn privacy cause i share my room now and everyone just barges in whenever they please to use to the bathroom and use our closet. its rediculous.. i cant watch my own TV cause everyone is hogging it up all the time, and they complain when im using the computer.. i just HATE it.. i just wanna run away. i wish i was rich so i could at least enjoy myself and go shopping by myself or something... SOMETHING!!!!!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Hello Again
I'm back! Haven't updated in a while. I just wanted to say that i'm movingg awayyyyy... Well not really away.. Just a few blocks down. Which is good.. cause i dont wanna be away from my love, and i wanna stay at SWC. So yeah.. Its an okay house.. kinda smaller but not too bad. It has a fireplace and i still get to keep my own room. heheheh. UM.. The backyar is kinda small.. Yeah. ITs really....... Yellow........ hahahhaha You wouldnt miss it if you were looking for it. lmao. Its cool too cause i'll be closer to my friend Doris.. Maybe we can hang out more. And i can see the behbeh!!!! What else..
Me and ryan went on a romantic date yesterday! <333333 It was so fun. We went to the beach and had a nice little picnic with some good food. He wrote me a sweet poem! awww! i love him. hahah Then we saw Inglorious Bastards. It was a good movie.. Seemed pretty long.. but there were no boring parts or anything. It was fun! and we had a good ending to the night as well.. *cough*... hahahahah!!!!!!! UM..
EW! tomorrow i think im gonna draw a naked person... ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!! its gonna be weird.. lookin at their parts... and drawing them all detailed.. ugh.. I hope he dosent make us do blind complimentary.... :
So yeah. this is my last week staying at this house. I'm really excited. UH.. i guess thats all lates!
Love,
Sara ;)
Me and ryan went on a romantic date yesterday! <333333 It was so fun. We went to the beach and had a nice little picnic with some good food. He wrote me a sweet poem! awww! i love him. hahah Then we saw Inglorious Bastards. It was a good movie.. Seemed pretty long.. but there were no boring parts or anything. It was fun! and we had a good ending to the night as well.. *cough*... hahahahah!!!!!!! UM..
EW! tomorrow i think im gonna draw a naked person... ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!! its gonna be weird.. lookin at their parts... and drawing them all detailed.. ugh.. I hope he dosent make us do blind complimentary.... :
So yeah. this is my last week staying at this house. I'm really excited. UH.. i guess thats all lates!
Love,
Sara ;)
Monday, August 24, 2009
Another Year has passed and im alright...
So im waiting here for Ryan to come get me so we can go get his check.. its 5 right now so he should be here in like 30-45 mins.. maybe.. haha I'm listening to the distillers right nowwwww on my TV.. SO let me tell you about my weekend i guess. lol.. on saturday Ryan had a show to play in TJ. It was fun!!!!!!! me an Ryan walked over the border alone, and we went and met up at everyone at this bar. we had a few beers and then went over to the venue. We bought a couple of 6 packs and went inside to drink and wait for everything to start. Then a couple of bands played and we were still drinkin and shit. Then Invocation War went on and i had to sit on the side and try to sell T-shirts and crap. Then i decided to let mike look over the shit so i can get up and see the show RIGHT. It was cool... i was in a mini mosh pit hahah. It was an okay show..Ryans bass fucked up on they're desaster cover.. lammeee.. but it turned out pretty good. haha then we finally came back over. and when we got home me and ryan almost passed the fuck out. But damnnnnn... TJ fucking SUCKSSS... They're always someone coming up to you either begging for oney or selling cheap shit. hahah It sucks though.. Little kids all dirty trying to sell shit.. :( Then on sunday me and ryan wanted to go see inglorious bastardsssssss.. but that never happened. We ended up satying home.. He played Halo 3 with Alvaro and Musselman.. I just watched mostly.. hahah and went online.. Oh!!! and ive been watching Sailor Moon for the past couple of dayssss,, I know i know its lame.... but i loved that show when i was a kid.. I loved it so much.. me and my sister would watch it EVERY DAY after school.. And we would never miss an episode.. If we did would just just CRY.. hahaha...So yeah my sister bought the DVDs at comic con.. They're in Japanese and they're bootlegged but whatever.. Its still cool ALRIGHT????!!! hahaha.. Uhh.. Thats all i can think of..
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
So..
MAN, am i getting fat. I can just feel.. I told Ryan i was getting fatter but of course he told me i wasn't.. What else would he say?.. Ugh.. But i know my body.. and when i say i gained a couple pounds, I GAINED A COUPLE POUNDS. I've been eating a lot more recently, compared to the once a day plan i was doing for quite some time.. Which worked surprisingly. lol more and more junk food, than real food now. And i dont get out at all. All i do is sit around my house. so.. Of course im getting fatter.. I'm HATING it.. but on monday i'll start my Yoga classes, which i cant wait for.. I know it will work.. maybe it will make me more healthy too. Fuck, i need to do a lot of things. I'm so damn lazy thoughhhhhhh.. lol i wish i was hot.. like, EXTREAMLY hot. like.. beyond gorgeous..... GOOOOODDDDDD.. i get so angry with myself.. hahah Something must be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Moving on. I keep getting Helloween stuck in my head. I WANT OUT!!!!! To liiiiive myyy life aloone.. I WANT OUT!!!!! leaaaave meee beeee!! I WANT OUT!!!!! To dooo thiiings on my own!! I WANT OUT!!!!! To liiive my life and to be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
It's 6 AM!!! and i dont know what to do. No sleep.. Sleep is for the weak! oh no!! my beautifuil roses are starting to die! :( nooooooo!!!!!! they're starting to ROT!.. haha I wish i had a monkey.. So then i could train it to be my butler. like in the sims... haha i'm watching this thing on Animal Planet about monkies. crazy little buggas..I WANT OUT!!!!!! haha jk.
I'm kinda bored.. I should listen to destoyer 666 and Primal Fear so i can know some songs when we go see em. Invocation War (My boyfriends band) is gonna be playing some shows soon too.. but one of them is a 21+ show.. which is GAY!! i really wanna go. :(
so it turns out i'm not moving.. which is a good thing. Honestly, im pretty tired of living in this house.. but i'd rather live here and be close to my Ryan and close to school and close to whatever friends i have left, than go live up in Hisperia.. FUCK NO.. Thats way to far.. even though we would have been living in a nice ass house.. where it snows.. up in the mountain area.. Nahh.. To far. I would have been miserable if i couldnt see my love. hahah So this problem is solved and we wont be going anywhere for a long time.. i think were actually gonna buy this house... i think.. Which would be cool cause then we could add on to it and maybe add a second story.. and i can get a cooler room.. with my own bathroom?????? hahahah i wish.. I swear though.. i cant wait to move out on my own.. To be able to do whatever i want whenever i want.. and to have a car.. and be able to buy anything i want.. and decorate my whole house however i want.. have as many parties as i want.. Siiiiighhhh... all in due time.. I just cant give up.. get my shit taken care of NOW so i can have fun and be really happy in the future!!
Okay thats all for now i guess.. What am i gonna do now...?... enter for tiffanyd's contest some more.. and check out some sexy pics from my sexy man!! woo!! goodnight..
Love,
Sara :)
Moving on. I keep getting Helloween stuck in my head. I WANT OUT!!!!! To liiiiive myyy life aloone.. I WANT OUT!!!!! leaaaave meee beeee!! I WANT OUT!!!!! To dooo thiiings on my own!! I WANT OUT!!!!! To liiive my life and to be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
It's 6 AM!!! and i dont know what to do. No sleep.. Sleep is for the weak! oh no!! my beautifuil roses are starting to die! :( nooooooo!!!!!! they're starting to ROT!.. haha I wish i had a monkey.. So then i could train it to be my butler. like in the sims... haha i'm watching this thing on Animal Planet about monkies. crazy little buggas..I WANT OUT!!!!!! haha jk.
I'm kinda bored.. I should listen to destoyer 666 and Primal Fear so i can know some songs when we go see em. Invocation War (My boyfriends band) is gonna be playing some shows soon too.. but one of them is a 21+ show.. which is GAY!! i really wanna go. :(
so it turns out i'm not moving.. which is a good thing. Honestly, im pretty tired of living in this house.. but i'd rather live here and be close to my Ryan and close to school and close to whatever friends i have left, than go live up in Hisperia.. FUCK NO.. Thats way to far.. even though we would have been living in a nice ass house.. where it snows.. up in the mountain area.. Nahh.. To far. I would have been miserable if i couldnt see my love. hahah So this problem is solved and we wont be going anywhere for a long time.. i think were actually gonna buy this house... i think.. Which would be cool cause then we could add on to it and maybe add a second story.. and i can get a cooler room.. with my own bathroom?????? hahahah i wish.. I swear though.. i cant wait to move out on my own.. To be able to do whatever i want whenever i want.. and to have a car.. and be able to buy anything i want.. and decorate my whole house however i want.. have as many parties as i want.. Siiiiighhhh... all in due time.. I just cant give up.. get my shit taken care of NOW so i can have fun and be really happy in the future!!
Okay thats all for now i guess.. What am i gonna do now...?... enter for tiffanyd's contest some more.. and check out some sexy pics from my sexy man!! woo!! goodnight..
Love,
Sara :)
Monday, August 3, 2009
DAMN
Im trying to win this contest but this lame site wont let me comment on a particular blog. I need to figure out whats going on and how to use this site properly. i dont know why im making a blog about it.. i guess i was just bored on trying so much. I need to comment on her contest video as many times as i can on two different usernames on youtube. so i might win there. i need to comment on her blog on here so i can have that chance to win. and then i need to reply to some of her tweets on twitter. but i forgot my password.. which is weird cause i usually use the same ones for everything.. it wont let me in. ok im off to try some more.. cause i really need some makeup brushes.. heheh
Love,
Sara :)
Love,
Sara :)
Sunday, August 2, 2009
What a shitty Night
Well, my boyfriend decided to be gay and do something i told him not to the other night.. Which really pissed me off. but luckily he made up for it by telling me the truth, and buying me a dozen red roses and taking me to the movies. :) We saw Funny People.. which was.. okay.. kinda funny in the beginning.. it was really long too. lol but I really appreciated him telling the truth to me today. so i guess all is well again.. i just hope he keeps his promise!!!!!!!!!!! And i love my beautiful flowers too!! :D
hahah SO i think im gonna get a JOB! i might work at sally's beauty supply down the street here. Since my school schedule probably wont turn out as cool as i had hoped for, i'll just go part time and get a part time job so i can make some money and FINALLY go shopping. I've been wanting to go shopping for the longest time! i need to check out the store's website right now and see whats up. I really wanna buy a sewing machine, Sigma makeup brushes, and a bunch of stuff from LUSH!!! and some handmade clothing from some people on Etsy. That will be cool and i cant wait! So wish me luck and i'll write again soon.. LATES!
Love,
Sara ;P
hahah SO i think im gonna get a JOB! i might work at sally's beauty supply down the street here. Since my school schedule probably wont turn out as cool as i had hoped for, i'll just go part time and get a part time job so i can make some money and FINALLY go shopping. I've been wanting to go shopping for the longest time! i need to check out the store's website right now and see whats up. I really wanna buy a sewing machine, Sigma makeup brushes, and a bunch of stuff from LUSH!!! and some handmade clothing from some people on Etsy. That will be cool and i cant wait! So wish me luck and i'll write again soon.. LATES!
Love,
Sara ;P
Sunday, July 26, 2009
UGhhhhh.. school is gonna be lame..
Cause i waited to long to sign up for classes. now im on some waiting lists and i probably wont get the schedule i wanted!! thats pretty gay. Right now im over here at Edwin's house chillin.. waitin to get a connect. I dont have any internet at the moment so i will make my post here!! This is taking foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. wanna blaze itttt.
So tomorrow i gotta go back to SWC with Michelle so i can figure this shit out. i gotta call her later today. i dont really know what to write about today. i havent done much lately.. just swimmin and chillin with some peeeps. i dunno.. thats all for today cause i cant write on here with people behind me watching what i type hahaha so im out!!!
Love,
Sara :)
So tomorrow i gotta go back to SWC with Michelle so i can figure this shit out. i gotta call her later today. i dont really know what to write about today. i havent done much lately.. just swimmin and chillin with some peeeps. i dunno.. thats all for today cause i cant write on here with people behind me watching what i type hahaha so im out!!!
Love,
Sara :)
Saturday, July 18, 2009
I just made a post and it didnt come up. WTF! I don't feel like typing it all over again. oh well.. it was basically saying that i'm falling behind with getting my school stuff taken care of.. and i might not be able to go in the fall.. because im lame and i dont know what papers i need and i dont know what classes i need.. so yeah. thats all..
Monday, July 13, 2009
Ugh..
I'm so mad at Ryan's MOM!!!! She won't leave him alone and let him do what he wants.. EVER! Seriously, he's like the only guy i know who HAS to hang out with his mom. UGHHH!!! she gets me so mad. I hate going to his house because of her too. Always yelling and saying things about me when im right there. Can't she just pretend to be nice when i come around? Ask me how i'm doing?? wait until i leave to talk shit? damn... calm down already.. fjvio;jvn;oau I just wanna hang out with my Ryan. :( I miss him from not seeing him all day yesterday. Well at least i got to see him for a couple of hours today driving around. FUCKK!!!!
So i guess our cat had babies awhole back and finally brought 2 of them back home. One ran away already, and one is still here. I think Josh might have caught it! i'm gonna go check it out right now. see you guys later!
Love,
Sara :)
So i guess our cat had babies awhole back and finally brought 2 of them back home. One ran away already, and one is still here. I think Josh might have caught it! i'm gonna go check it out right now. see you guys later!
Love,
Sara :)
Sunday, July 12, 2009
FAIL
So i guess my sleeping habits weren't fixed at all. :( Here i am once again at 6:48 AM. UGHH.. i don't think i'll be able to fix it again. Oh well... Fuck it! hahahha
So tomorrow, my boyfriend Ryan is playing a show in TJ with his band Invocation War. It sucks cause i really really really wanna go, but i'm scared cause i don't have a passport and i dont wanna get fined or anything like that. Neither does he, but he's going anyways.. I hope nothing happens to him coming back over the border. lol TJ is soooo scary. But its fun cause i can drink and not get in trouble. heheheh. I hope he has a lot of fun and dosen't get into any trouble over there. lol I told him to stay with the group, and not to go anywhere by himself. Seriously, people get killed over there!! and they get their bodies stuffed with drugs!!! AHHH!! scary.. hahah Anyways, i hope they get a lot of pictures!!
Well, i ran out of stuff to do online, so this is the last thing i'm doing before i sign out for the night.. er.. morning.. or whatever. I CANT STOP THINKING OF STARTING MY CLOTHING LINE!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I'm SO SO SO SO excited to start! i gotta start losing weight and dye my hair a crazy red... This is pretty much the style i want..
Think it will look good on me? (for people who know what i look like..?) heheh. I dont know. Looks cool to me. :P Anywayssssss. goodnight people.. I'm hungry again so im gonna eat something and then maybe pass out. heheh
Love,
Sara :)
So tomorrow, my boyfriend Ryan is playing a show in TJ with his band Invocation War. It sucks cause i really really really wanna go, but i'm scared cause i don't have a passport and i dont wanna get fined or anything like that. Neither does he, but he's going anyways.. I hope nothing happens to him coming back over the border. lol TJ is soooo scary. But its fun cause i can drink and not get in trouble. heheheh. I hope he has a lot of fun and dosen't get into any trouble over there. lol I told him to stay with the group, and not to go anywhere by himself. Seriously, people get killed over there!! and they get their bodies stuffed with drugs!!! AHHH!! scary.. hahah Anyways, i hope they get a lot of pictures!!
Well, i ran out of stuff to do online, so this is the last thing i'm doing before i sign out for the night.. er.. morning.. or whatever. I CANT STOP THINKING OF STARTING MY CLOTHING LINE!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I'm SO SO SO SO excited to start! i gotta start losing weight and dye my hair a crazy red... This is pretty much the style i want..
Think it will look good on me? (for people who know what i look like..?) heheh. I dont know. Looks cool to me. :P Anywayssssss. goodnight people.. I'm hungry again so im gonna eat something and then maybe pass out. heheh
Love,
Sara :)
Thursday, July 9, 2009
I Did it!!!!!
Soooo.. I finally was able to fix my sleeping habits.. i think..?
I stayed awake until 3pm yesterday (I wasn't supposed to sleep yet.. OOPS!) slept for like an hour and a half, then my boyfriend Ryan came and woke me up before he went to band practice.. So i stayed up to shower and eat.. then went to sleep again for a couple more hours so i would be able to hang out with Ryan when he got back.. If i didn't take those naps i would have been passing out while he was here. Soooo.. he got back at about 9:45 and stayed until 12:30 with meh. AND i ended up sleeping again and i slept through the whole night, and woke up around 1pm. hehhehe.
So now im just waiting for Elle (or allthatglitters21 from Youtube) to be on blogTV. While waiting i added a few beauty bloggers to my blogspot friends on here. :) and i'm about to go eat now so i'll talk you you soon. BYE!
Love,
Sara :)
I stayed awake until 3pm yesterday (I wasn't supposed to sleep yet.. OOPS!) slept for like an hour and a half, then my boyfriend Ryan came and woke me up before he went to band practice.. So i stayed up to shower and eat.. then went to sleep again for a couple more hours so i would be able to hang out with Ryan when he got back.. If i didn't take those naps i would have been passing out while he was here. Soooo.. he got back at about 9:45 and stayed until 12:30 with meh. AND i ended up sleeping again and i slept through the whole night, and woke up around 1pm. hehhehe.
So now im just waiting for Elle (or allthatglitters21 from Youtube) to be on blogTV. While waiting i added a few beauty bloggers to my blogspot friends on here. :) and i'm about to go eat now so i'll talk you you soon. BYE!
Love,
Sara :)
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Okay.. So I Never Went To Sleep..
I got all caught up on this thing.. I originally made it on Livejournal.com... but the layouts you choose from are hella ugly and boring. I thought I could change them later, but it still looked shitty.. So I chose BLOGGER!! and I like it a whole lot better. Hahaha. So I've been on here trying to fix it up and everything.
I need to stay awake ALL day today. Since nothing is planned for the day.. I will fix my sleeping habits TONIGHT! Yay! I'm probably going to be on here and playing FFXI all day
... so again wish me luck..
TIME TO MAKE COFFEE!!! YUMS!!
Oh.. and if anyone wants to chat with me through out the day to keep me AWAKE.. I'll be on MSN!! So ADD ME!
Heavenly_Suffering@hotmail.com -YAY! :P
Love,
Sara :)
I need to stay awake ALL day today. Since nothing is planned for the day.. I will fix my sleeping habits TONIGHT! Yay! I'm probably going to be on here and playing FFXI all day
... so again wish me luck..
TIME TO MAKE COFFEE!!! YUMS!!
Oh.. and if anyone wants to chat with me through out the day to keep me AWAKE.. I'll be on MSN!! So ADD ME!
Heavenly_Suffering@hotmail.com -YAY! :P
Love,
Sara :)
Here Goes Nothing..
*Siigghhh..*
I've been thinking a lot lately.. and I'm REALLY excited to get my life started.. I've been planning and planning for the future, and have imagined where i will end up. I have about a million ideas running around in my head and i don't really know where to start. i have so many interests in things, but i really cant do anything with ANY of them.
For example..
I wanna be a graphic artist.. but i lack skills and i don't have my own computer.
I wanna be a fashion designer.. but i also lack skills and don't have a sewing machine or any other materials needed.
I wanna make videos on Youtube.. buuut.. i don't have anything to talk about.. and i don't have the materials needed.
etc etc.
Okay.. so this is what I'm thinking.. since I'm going to school to be a graphic designer at the moment.. i will hopefully gain the skills i need within a year.. maybe more. To be great at it, i might need more schooling.. but who knows.. within this year, i need to buy a sewing machine and hopefully I'll be able to take a sewing class or something so i can start making clothes. Meanwhile.. I'll be practicing with makeup and things like that so i can make those damn videos and get the word out about my clothes.. umm.. after i get my associates in art, i think i might go to school to be a pharmacist or something.. so i can really be bawlin'....lol
I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!! but i don't want a job yet.. And that's the main thing that's really holding me back.. Oh well.. I'll figure something out.. Within a year maybe things will really start happenin for meh.
Anyways.. i've decided to make this livejournal account to write out things i'm going through, things i'm feeling, things I'm thinking about, plans, to document the fun days and the bad days (Unfortunately... ) ETC. So I'm gonna end this here because it's fuckin 8:00 in the fuckin morning and i gotta get my ass to sleep. i need to start the lame ass day ahead of me. lol I'll be sure to update this as much as possible so anyone who is interested in my life can know what I'm up to..
hehehheheh! WISH ME LUCK!!!!
Love,
Sara ;)
I've been thinking a lot lately.. and I'm REALLY excited to get my life started.. I've been planning and planning for the future, and have imagined where i will end up. I have about a million ideas running around in my head and i don't really know where to start. i have so many interests in things, but i really cant do anything with ANY of them.
For example..
I wanna be a graphic artist.. but i lack skills and i don't have my own computer.
I wanna be a fashion designer.. but i also lack skills and don't have a sewing machine or any other materials needed.
I wanna make videos on Youtube.. buuut.. i don't have anything to talk about.. and i don't have the materials needed.
etc etc.
Okay.. so this is what I'm thinking.. since I'm going to school to be a graphic designer at the moment.. i will hopefully gain the skills i need within a year.. maybe more. To be great at it, i might need more schooling.. but who knows.. within this year, i need to buy a sewing machine and hopefully I'll be able to take a sewing class or something so i can start making clothes. Meanwhile.. I'll be practicing with makeup and things like that so i can make those damn videos and get the word out about my clothes.. umm.. after i get my associates in art, i think i might go to school to be a pharmacist or something.. so i can really be bawlin'....lol
I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!! but i don't want a job yet.. And that's the main thing that's really holding me back.. Oh well.. I'll figure something out.. Within a year maybe things will really start happenin for meh.
Anyways.. i've decided to make this livejournal account to write out things i'm going through, things i'm feeling, things I'm thinking about, plans, to document the fun days and the bad days (Unfortunately... ) ETC. So I'm gonna end this here because it's fuckin 8:00 in the fuckin morning and i gotta get my ass to sleep. i need to start the lame ass day ahead of me. lol I'll be sure to update this as much as possible so anyone who is interested in my life can know what I'm up to..
hehehheheh! WISH ME LUCK!!!!
Love,
Sara ;)
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